seachell3s:

some girls have that factor. the wow factor. the “its in their eyes” thing. the body language that says sex appeal, the perfect figure. the “it” thing. perfect style, hair, stance. long legs, pretty smile. some girls just have it. some girls are just more attractive than others.. and sometimes I find myself trying to live up to that standard. I try to change things about myself to make myself more appealing and to be more like that girl. cos who am I kidding, that’s mostly who all of them he’s want when it comes down to it today. I’ll aspire to dress with a certain style, talk with a certain wit, walk with a certain swag.. but at the end of the day when I think about it and I realize that “that girl” is not me. I’m probably more of a cute girl than the girl I just described. the one you see as your friend first and your friend most. but I know that this is me, all in all and all in everything. and I actually for once am starting to embrace it. I’m more sweet than flirty and more thoughtful and insightful than mysterious. I don’t have anything to hide and for the most part I’m not ashamed of where I’ve been, where I am or where I’m going. I don’t need to change myself in a way for approval or to catch a compliment. I shouldn’t be beckoning for them from someone who doesn’t like me (for me), and I promised myself that a long time ago.. I may never be that girl that all the he’s will do a double take for. but I sure as heck don’t need his or their approval to validate me. I’m not gonna say “I’m fine”. I’m not going to say “someday”. I’m not going to say “I hope” or that “I’m patiently waiting”. I am just going to keep doing me, loving me, living me.. for all that it’s worth.